Kelly Osbourne is continuing to honor her dad one year after his death.
On Instagram Wednesday, the 41-year-old daughter of the late Ozzy Osbourne marked 12 months since the rocker’s passing with an emotional letter. Penning it to her father directly, she wrote:
“My Daddy,
One year ago today, the world changed forever. Today I sit here beside you in a way I never thought would be possible. I know you are still with me. I feel you in the quiet, in the wind, in every song that stops me in my tracks, is the smell of your cologne and in every moment that love outweighs grief. You are all around me. The hardest part isn’t that you’re gone. The hardest part is that I can’t touch you. I can’t hold your hand. I can’t wrap my arms around you or feel the safety that only you could give me. I always thought life was hard, but life without you has been the hardest thing I have ever had to endure.”
So sad…
She continued:
“You are my everything. My protector. My greatest teacher. My best friend. The apple of my eye. My reason. Now all I have are memories. But my God, what beautiful memories they are. Even through all the madness we lived through, you somehow made every moment worthwhile. You taught me that love could exist in the simplest things. A cuddle on the sofa, watching the same television program for what felt like the hundredth time, your incredible jokes, your endless complaining, and of course you asking me for a kiss with a mouth still full of food. I would give absolutely anything to experience those little moments just one more time. I just want to hear you say “Kelly can you?” One more time. And of course, whatever you wanted I would do. I have never loved anyone or anything as deeply as uniquely as I love you. And now I carry all of that love with nowhere to place it except within me, my son, and mumma. “
She went on to say that it has been “the greatest privilege of my life” to be able to call Ozzy her dad:
“I just want to hear you say “Kelly can you?” One more time. And of course, whatever you wanted I would do. I have never loved anyone or anything as deeply as uniquely as I love you. And now I carry all of that love with nowhere to place it except within me, my son, and mumma. It aches every single day, but it is also the greatest privilege of my life. To have loved someone so completely. I wish you could see your grandson.”
While speaking about her son, Sidney, Kelly said:
“Oh, Daddy, you would adore the little man he is becoming. Every single day I catch glimpses of you in him. Your smile. Your spirit. Your mannerisms. Sometimes it stops me in my tracks because it feels as though you’ve found a way to remind me that love never truly leaves us. Seeing you reflected in him is one of the greatest gifts I have ever been given.”
The Osbournes star added of her grief:
“I don’t think you ever truly knew the impact you had on this world. I certainly didn’t until you were gone. Person after person came forward with stories of the hope you gave them, the kindness you showed them, the strength you inspired in them. You changed lives simply by being yourself and the beautiful timeless music you created. You were a true working-class hero who never forgot what he came from! You made people believe that life could be better because of the way you lived yours. With honesty, loyalty, courage, humor, and a heart bigger than anyone realized. There will never be another you. You carried something extraordinary inside you, a kind of magic that felt heaven- sent, and I will spend the rest of my life feeling grateful that I got to call you my daddy. “
Wrapping up her letter, Kelly emotionally wrote:
“This past year has broken me in ways I never knew were possible. Everything you warned me would happen, happened. But I want you to know that I listened. I did everything you told me to do, and I will continue to follow your words for the rest of my life. Your voice still guides me every day. Until the day we meet again. Music may live forever, but what our family created our bond, our laughter, our unwavering love is eternal. Death could never take that from us. You may no longer walk beside me, but you live in every choice I make, every lesson I pass on, every piece of courage I can find, and every beat of my heart. I will carry you with me for the rest of my days. Thank you for being my daddy. Thank you for loving me so fiercely. Thank you for making me who I am. I miss you with every part of my soul. I love you beyond words, beyond time, beyond this life. Until we find each other again. Your little Kelly can you Totsie girl.”
Aww… Just devastating. We’re sending all our love to Kelly. See her full letter (below):
She also shared a second post, revealing what she’s learned about grief since the Black Sabbath rocker’s death. She wrote:
“I don’t just mourn the father I lost. I mourn the soul I was before death taught my heart its own name. There is a grief that steals more than the person you love. It quietly takes the light from your laughter, the innocence from your hope, and the stranger you become is someone you’ll spend a lifetime trying to recognize. People think grief is missing someone who is gone, but the deepest sorrow is waking each day longing for the version of yourself who died with them. Grief is a language no one truly speaks until life forces it upon them.”
So beautifully said. She continued:
“It cannot be explained, borrowed, or imagined. You only understand its endless ache when you’ve stood in the unbearable silence, carrying a love that has nowhere left to go. I miss who I was before my daddy died. Before my heart became a home for absence. Before every memory became both a blessing and a wound. Some losses don’t simply break you. They divide your life into two people. The one you were before, and the one left behind. And perhaps that is grief’s cruelest truth. Not that death takes the ones we love, but that it leaves us living as ghosts of the people we used to be.”
Our heart continues to be with the Osbournes. May Ozzy rest in peace.
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